Disease in my opinion

When I know that suffering from leukemia, he respectfully kneel in prayer, seeking God's healing, of course, sometimes complain to God why have this disease! My lifestyle has been good, moderate, very caring of her body. Sometimes they call me the hearts of injustice. Thank God! This mentality will continue to be no longer repeated in prayer, experience Ping'an, gradually learned to submit to quiet down, I have come to realize we can not control life. 

◎ to God for strength 

From then on day one before going to bed injection drug needles. Order side effects of oral discomfort, tongue dry, taste is also receded, likes to eat things that have now no taste, a few weeks and lost twenty pounds of body weight. A sister sent milk to help solve many problems, but also to maintain the body's nutrition. 

Then dry skin, itching. Antipruritic drugs over a period of time after the invalid. Itch sometimes wake up at night, lying in bed helpless. Paul reminds them suddenly stabbed Flanagan, Paul had asked God to remove the thorn, but God did not take away. I itch when I pray for God's quiet, very quickly to sleep, woke up when dawn. Thank God! 

Physical decline. Originally from the car park to the office as long as four minutes of the trip, and now a full 12 minutes to walk to. Have from the car park to the church hall, step by step slowly pulled away, heard the choir sing "Jesus TU" Friends of Poetry: "By Grace Block, the former seeking ... ..." The lyrics are so familiar, so powerful, I am deeply was encouraged. 

God is all-powerful, loving, full of grace! Bible, "Hebrews," Chapter Twelve "to drop the hands, legs quite up sour." Weakness of the body when it is really rather not own up. Lord ah! Please help me, give me strength, to Ben that ahead of us away. 

◎ endless grace of God 

After two chemotherapy Mrs. Chen, I told her greetings, her words to the Bible, "God's grace I have used enough" to encourage me. I began to count God's grace: 

Brothers and sisters in public prayer, private prayer in the Memorial, I also constantly concerned about and encouraged me; 

After the brothers have to get up first thing on my prayer; 

Sister has sent me when Easter Easter rabbit toys, look like I can jump like a rabbit, and returned to serve in the ranks; 

It was sent to the Bible verse: "No one should worry, as long as everything by prayer, praying and thanks to you to tell God, God Ping'an surprising, certainly in Christ Jesus conservative ideas of your mind." ( "Philipians" section of four chapters 6-7) 

Brothers and sisters as considerate of my body, and the Bible to meet at my house, I am tired at any time back to room to rest. 

Eight months before treatment, bone marrow with abnormal white blood cell has been controlled. Attending physician was surprised to hear that, can not explain why so fast. I am well aware that God works. 

◎ postscript 

Illness is a hard thing, long-term treatment is even more difficult, if also need to tolerate the side effects of chemotherapy, then it is bitter bitter Sino-Canadian; however I have God conservative medical treatment, experiencing God's great energy, kindness and grace, there are brothers sister love. God's grace I have used enough. 

Miss Zhang Xiaofeng this prayer: "Lord ah! I do not ask you to remove the thorns in front of me, but I beg you to go over a pair of thorns in the foot." I know that as long as I am in treatment, side effects like those thorns in front of the same still exists. Lord added strength so that I can rely on the main big easy through these thorns. 

Later, doctors switch to new drugs, to reduce the many side effects, my strength slowly restored, the beginning of exercise, walking, loss of appetite increased, weight increased from 120 pounds to 130 pounds. The experience of life I am convinced that God's faithfulness, his day with me, comforted, encouraged me, and told me to go help others. Bible said: "We all go through thick and thin, the comfort us and asks us to be God's comfort, to comfort it by various trials and tribulations of the people" ( "2 Corinthians" Chapter 1 4).