November 14, 2003, at the Baptist hospital to wait for me, a good mood looking forward to the arrival of the baby. As a result of too much stomach pain, doctors make a series of checks over the past few days. 5:00 p.m., and the test results finally came out, being kept in the dark, I do not know what happened? Only to see doctors and nurses whisper, walked up and down, the whole to be the delivery room is filled with tension. Brother told me that I would have to go to Queen Elizabeth Hospital, and afterwards he told me, when the attending doctor said that my condition is too serious, the judge of what I have been unable to treat, in order to rescue the unborn fetus, the need for Caesarean section as soon as possible.
Queen Elizabeth Hospital doctor told me that my liver has a about 13 centimeters, such as grapefruit size tumor rupture, intraperitoneal all the blood, it is necessary to surgery immediately. In the operating room, wearing a saw a group of doctors, with a them a talk with me, but the pain is too intense, the hearts of just want to escape as soon as possible, simply can not hear what they say. Doctor after the five-hour rescue operation, I liver hemorrhage within the situation was brought under control, but also because of prematurity and daughter were sent to observe the infant intensive care unit. The day after surgery, my condition deteriorated, doctors said the liver tumor if still can not stop bleeding, the situation will not optimistic. Thank God for the attention, a number of subsequent surgery, I am getting better with the situation.
Surgery makes me feel like a thorn awl heart feeling the cold winter weather, let me trembling. And stuck onto countless tubes, the body can not move, she would like to die are also not die, it is since I have never experienced the pain. When he saw his younger brother brought his daughter's photo, who also received full apparatus, young body is so fragile it seems, and my mother and what not be able to help her or even see her one just can not do it, so my heart more sadness, emotional also become very depressed! In the Intensive Care Unit days, every day I wake up is to stop the pain over and over again, and then press the painkiller needle fell sleepy again. Fortunately, every day in the afternoon of visiting time, my brother will read one called "a sober story," I listen to books, book, short story made me be inspired and encouraged, but also to know Jesus Christ. After half a month, I continued to stable condition, doctors will let me go home to rest and discharged.
More than a month later, when I go back to hospital for follow-up consultation, the doctor told me that I had liver cancer, but tumors too, I do not know whether the surgery. At that moment, tears can not help but flow out all over the world to become a dark feeling! I do not understand the world so many people, Why me? Daughter still in the infant ICU, who will take care of the future? How can I do? Back home, I called to tell her husband the severity of their illnesses, he heard, the only coldly told me: "I beg your pardon, I can not afford to take care of you, because I was the only son of the family, I would like to take care of their parents from the burden of responsibility Therefore, should not accompany you ... .... "I listened along disappointing, really can not believe he will do that to me, in my most helpless. People most in need of consolation, he hurt me. Love more deeply, hurt more deeply, deeper! From that day on, I hate him, the subsequent explanation of how he told me not to listen to him do not care.
Brother know that I am worried about heart trouble, we get stories from the Bible to show me. Also known as Jesus, I trust, all worries are entrusted to him, also taught me to pray with all the problems will be entrusted to pay God, let him make the arrangements. Listen to my brother to say, and I carefully looked at it, the biblical story, hoping to receive help. From the Bible I see the unique things of God to create heaven and earth line by signs and wonders, and he hath sent His son Jesus Christ came into the world. Him in order to redeem our sins, his own crucified by His Precious Blood cleansing our sins, that I am very moved, it would be deeper understanding of Him.
"January 14 surgery, all right?" Doctors over the past few days of discussions, the final decision for my surgery to remove the tumor, I am grateful for the outflow of tears. While in the hospital in 2004 Spend New Year's, but I do not mind. I think that they have spent more than 20 New Year and this year is not meaningful. Thanks to the grace of God, and I have known him only a very short time, he has quietly at my side I am a conservative, surgery went well, doctors successfully removed the tumor.
After surgery, I was sent to the intensive care unit observation, this is the second time I enter into this ward, nurses girls remember me, one after another to my bedside Wai bless me, to comfort me. God made me to feel His endless love, He knew that I Friend Nothing in Hong Kong, so I recognize that the intensive care unit arrangements blond angel.sister, in a general ward bed patients o Mrs Yu family, residents of Mr Abbot and Zhang nuns, through they told me to preach the gospel to comfort the hearts of my emptiness.
In June the same year, I am cancer recurrence, re-entry Queen Elizabeth Hospital, God very much look after me, he sent Mr Abbot came to my bedside to pray for me, asked me to rely on the Lord Jesus, only through God's lead and take care of , even though the road in front of more sinister, more rugged, as long as his confidence, would be moved forward to His grace. When I pray, together with Abbot will entrust everything in the hands of God, the true magic! My life Fantastic change occurred when I was lying on the operating table, there is no past, cold, helpless feeling of fear, the original master has entered my heart, I no longer face the difficulties of a person alone, the Lord has been with me the same, I experience within an infinite comfort.
Operation was successfully completed. Wake up, I have been living in ICUs, thank God, look after, the day after surgery, my body resume very quickly, the spirit is also much better. In the wards, I heard the girls are familiar with the dialogue and the pleasant sound of laughter.sister know that I am admitted to hospital, she came up to me from time to time with my bedside conversation, encourage and comfort me. In fact, I found that she is a devout Christian resettlement. Thank God! He sent a beautiful blonde angel to my side I look Gu. Received the support of God, I feel more open up.
Discharge from hospital, Mr Abbot wrote to me many times through the guide through and encouraged me to attend church gatherings, so I can gain a better understanding of God. Near my house there are many churches, has not previously been aware that God has been waiting for .I only care about whether she is willing. Whenever I went to the rooftop of morning, they saw tall crucifix opposite. Previously looked at what it does not feel, but this day think it especially eye-catching, mind also shows Jesus crucified scene, as Isaiah 65 Chapter 24, "they have not entreat, I promised, is speak when I answered. "God is wonderful, when I am prepared to accept Him into my life when I arranged for. His arrangement I came to Tai Tong, preacher man-made my experience with sadness, she prayed for me, inviting me to take part in fellowship, I feel weak in the support of brothers and sisters become strong, and slowly out of its own inner.
Back in September 2004 when the hospital follow-up consultation, CT report showed that my lungs have been a number of small shadow attending the Dr. Zhang said that surgery is no longer only a stable condition undergoing chemotherapy, but not very helpful. I immediately prayed to the Lord Jesus: God! You hear my voice do you cry? ... ... If you allow me, let me full of the spirit of! Jeremiah Chapter 32, as 27 "I am the Lord is the God who, no I am not into it?" Yes! Man has no power of the Lord should not have been done, as long as I feel reverence, humbly prostrate praise, God will certainly hear my prayer. Again at follow-up consultation, X-ray reports and blood test results, the doctor told me that the disease has been quite stable. Very unexpectedly, always faces grim Dr. Zhang also suggested that I look at traditional Chinese medicine. Fantastic grace of God I am realizing that that happened to me than anything else, God permitted Trial, let me in suffering and adversity which he suffered grace.
Thank the Lord, in December 25, 2004 this celebration, the main days of the birth of Jesus, I accept the baptism of the main commitments and live with the same die, make him loyal servant. Grace received, I strive every day to learn God's Word, through prayer, sharing, the pursuit of better spiritual growth. God has given me a heart to pursue the use of I in a suitable position for him to work, when I a good friend's sister suffered from ovarian cancer, aunt to the hospital sick, I know God the Father's will is to call me through the their own experience, witness, and lead them to understand the Lord, sharing the Gospel to them. Because of my experience, their hearts have a comfort and encouragement, but Thanksgiving is a friend's sister has to do to accept Jesus the Savior, was a salvation.
January 15, 2005, God for allowing me to experience Him as Fantastic. Him in my dreams my husband and I will be a period of history, from our meeting, met separately and now I am sick of all the fragments, such as scenes documentary screened in front of me. Blink of an eye, my husband and I have not met a year, I know God is through this dream, so I see my husband abandoned me just because of his crime to leave the God, Lord Jesus not only for my sins crucified, unto smearing of the Precious Blood has been my guilty, even though I committed a crime, but he has pardoned me. From that day on, my heart has been suppressed guidance of the Holy Spirit, I forgive her husband and sincerely pray for his soul to him to spread the gospel of God.
A recent follow-up consultation is February 8, 2005, Dr. Zhang told me, CT report showed that my liver cancer relapse again, and spread to the lung cancer cells have also deteriorated, my body will only step by step deterioration, he said to me can do nothing to help the disease. But now I no longer worry about my illness, because God has saved me, I have gained the blessings of this life the best, that is, awareness of the Lord Jesus, and relying on Him, a true inner Ping'an. If we look to God to recover precious thing, it is because another give us something more valuable.
Before, I was handling her daughter's custody, and that the lawyer fees of more than 10,000 distressed when the church pastor as well as brothers and sisters looking for help, they are unable to hand policy. He has the original God's will, when I visited New Year, from her mouth to know that her son was a doctor, now a lawyer, after her son's help, from more than 10,000 legal fees become more than 500 . Once again, thank God for giving me mercy! Today the Lord to touch me, I shall continue to seek Him.
In my most painful, falls, by numerous tests, the God has been at my side, give me hope and confidence to overcome difficulties, I experienced the unlimited under the divine grace, the Lord God has saved me, and today I have a new life, with eternal hope. I know that God is still preserved today, my life is to be the gospel to those who I did not realize his people. I want to like Paul said: "That's a good battle I have fought, when running the way I have tried to run, the letter I have to hold onto the Road", let me breath of life still day, mainly to spread the gospel, people would like to recognize the Lord,the name of the saved, is willing to go all the glory of praise to our Father in heaven. Amen
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